not so happy weekend

I am happily pregnant for the past 11weeks and 6 days...

07.07.12- Found out that I am pregnant during 4weeks, buat test sendiri kat rumah and it's positive! =) Pegi clinic for further check up n beli satu lg test kit sbb mcm tak percaya. mixed feeling and happy sangat!

19.07.12 - Hubby was away to India and i'm home alone. Bangun shi-shi tengah mlm i spotted blood but not painful. Cuba untuk tenangkan hati sbb first time experience. Try to do some reading on net.. some said it's normal. Next morning terus pegi clinic for check up. Doktor pon ckp it is normal, part of placenta development. Doktor bg ubat untuk kuatkan rahim. Bleeding stops after 5 days.

Day by day,Alhamdulillah..everything was ok after that. I could say i didn't experience morning sickness at all except for lower back pain. Craving pelik-pelik pon takde..hubby yg teringin nk mkn pulut pagi n putu mayam..hehe. luckily dia dapat apa yg di idamkan :)

04.08.12 - 1st pregnancy check up. Blood pressure is ok. Doctor did the ultrasound but cannot see the fetus. Sack je yang growing. Doktor ckp maybe the fetus too small -6weeks 6days. Doctor advise for another scan during next check up. Planned date on 08.09.12 (Kita merancang,Tuhan menentukan)

17.08.12 - Travelling from KL - Kelantan for raya. Almost 10hours on the road. After bukak puasa,we went to Wakaf Che Yeh for last minute shopping. During midnight, spotted blood again. Same as previous one and not painful at all. So, i assume it is normal. Continue raya sakan. Makan all those yummy raya foods. Kelantanese mmg famous with tapai, setiap rumah mesti ada haidangkan tapai..but I didn't had any sbb tapai not good for pregnant woman sbb panas.

23.08.12 - Travelling back from Kelantan - KL. Overnight at Cameron Highlands to buy some fresh veggies and fresh fruits. Masa ni dah rasa tak sedap hati, back pain and bleeding pon heavier than normal. Darah keluar mcm period..fresh blood warna merah.But still takde rasa sakit langsung

25.08.12 - Seharian beraya :) At night, hubby took me for check up sbb bleeding non stop. I tried not to worry so much sbb tak sakit. Still applying the positive thinking. We directly went to the clinic which I normally go for check up. Doc did the ultrasound and she said cannot see anything inside my womb ;( She advise us to go to the hospital for 2nd opinion and ask the doc to do an ultrasound via V area. She prepared the referral letter but i insist not to go to the hospital that night. I'm still in undeniable state ;( Told hubby I want to go home n rest. Hubby pon down with fever..kesian dia. Balik rumah..freshen up a bit then off to bed.

26.08.12 - 1 o'clock in the morning, I started to feel segala mcm sakit. Back pain, rasa nk poo poo, rasa mcm period pain sume dtg attack. Still acting cool mcm boleh tahan.. My condition getting worst at 4am, rasa period pain yg macam nk terkeluar segala isi perut. Sakitttt sangat ;( Tried not to wake up my hubby sbb kesian dia demam n penat driving. At 5am mcm tak tahan, terpaksa kejutkan jugak, letak tuala panas kat perut and minum air susm untuk kurangkan sakit. Pegi toilet untuk shi shi then. suddenly rasa darah seketul keluar. Lepas tu baca ayat nabi yunus nk kurangkan sakit..Alahamdulillah bole tido jap. 7am sakit datang lagi, this time mmg unbearable. Hubby ajak pegi hospital. Kuatkan diri untuk bangun..sakitnya Tuhan je tahu. Masuk toilet untuk mandi, it tooks me a while sbb menahan sakit. Masa tengah mandi, tiba2 banyak sgt darah keluar ada yang berketul-ketul..Ada banyakk ;( I'm so scared! Panggil hubby masuk and we both tenung each other. Both of us speechless and tengok je ketulan darah tu ;( sedihhhhhh sangat. At that moment,I know I have to accept the fate. My baby is gone ;( Hubby tolong cucikan darah, i cepat-cepat mandi.Without having breakfast, we straight away went to the nearest hospital - Damansara Damai Medical Center. Medical officer did another scan and she officially told us that i had an incomplete misscarriage and i need to go for D&C (Dilation/dilatation and curettage) as soon as possible sbb darah dah banyak keluar.She quickly arranged with the specialist for the procedure. D&C procedure was done in the operation theater, it is a minor operation where the patient is usually put under general anesthesia before the procedure begins. A curette, a metal rod with a handle on one end and a sharp loop on the other, is inserted into the uterus through the dilated cervix. The curette is used to gently scrape the lining of the uterus and remove the tissue in the uterus. This tissue is examined for completeness (in the case of abortion or miscarriage treatment) or pathologically for abnormalities (in the case of treatment for abnormal bleeding). The procedure took about 30minutes. Alhamdulillah..I sedar after 2hours and i didn't feel any pain after the procedure. It totally took away the pain. Based on internet review, Dr Kamal is a good doctor. Stayed at the hospital for 1 night because they want to monitor the bleeding. Total cost for the procedure+room+medication+consultation =RM 1415

28.08.12 - Here I am, resting at home and today is my 2nd day pantang. I'm on 1 week MC. So far Alhamdulillah with the support from families and friends, I can accept the fate. Not my rezeki this time and Allah will replace with a better one, insyaAllah. Allah always has a better plan for all of us....Aminnnn :)