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Thursday, September 18, 2008

Mari merenung masa depan

Today, I accidentally stumbled upon my old friend's friendster.She is one of my coursemate, i discovered that she's getting married soon. As I was updating myself looking at her engagement picture, I was quite surprise to find out, that she isn't the only person that will be tying a knot this year. Last Tuesday, one of my friends merangkap hausmate back in MMU sent me a personal invitation to her wedding this November. Transport and accomodation provided.ihihi..And also, another close friend is already getting busy for her big day this October.Ekin,let's shoes-hunting for your wedding this saturday ok! =)

Wah, so fast eh?

As I flipped through gamba dolu-dolu masa zaman gonjeng and their weddings' pictures, I came to realize how fast people have changed for the past few years, while I'm still exactly the same 'Hazlin' they met 4 years ago, which still working on something that I'm totally unsure of.

And while people busy planning their next wedding or thinking about switching job, I'm here, and still here mengarang entry ni and still figuring out what I should do for tomorrow or in a sense; thinking about how my future might look like in the next 3 years. bunyi macam poyo je kan!

I'm 24 this year and and still not sure enough to figure out my own life. I might be 25 next year, and constanly wondering when exactly i will be getting married. I always want to have my own happy family with cute little kids. But i have no idea bila tarikh keramat tu. Yes, i'm in a relationship, but i'm not sure if he is the one for me. ahh! Konflik dalaman dan jiwa kacau.

Few friends are now in the joy of parenthood...mesti happy bangat kan? being a mommy and mommy-to be. so happy for you and i am so jealous!!!!Hani, take care of yourself ok.I pray you will have a safe and healthy pregnancy.

As I'm trying to sort everything myself,people keep asking soalan cepu emas like 'eh, bila nak kawen?', keje dah stable..bla..bla.. Sometimes,it make me sick and tired of if.Frankly, I just hope, every time I go back home or jumpa dgn sedara mara,they will stop asking when am I getting married. Seriously, I have no idea. And each time I think about that, it might end up to nothing. Null.

Isn't it scary to be 24 dan belum ada plan untuk kawen???

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