It has been one hell of an emotional rollercoaster for me. I've been up, i've been down and most definitely i have been spinning around..and now, my head just hurts. I'm tired. I'm sick. I want out. Sometimes, i am just ashamed of myself. Ashamed that after all thats been said and done, my feelings still hasnt changed. I'm just tired of this rollercoaster. Tired of its ups and downs. I just want to get my feet back on the ground where i should be safe and stable... and hopefully meet someone! Why is it taking me so hard? Sheeesh...
Sometimes, I just wish that i could go to a doctor and ask him to do an operation on my heart. The operation would be like this: The doctor takes out my heart, examines it and find the spot where all these painful feelings reside and then cut it out from my heart, remove it and then place my heart back inside me and sew me back up. That way, i wont be feeling whatever it is im feeling anymore!! Yay!! Problem solved!senang kan.. And now, for the memories.. hehhe... same operation but this time, on the brain!! hehehe.... Oh yes.. not to forget, since the doctor has already sliced me open, he might as well perform liposuction on me!! Abis cerita! Tamat! The End to all my suffering and sadness. No more... You guys know any doctors that can help me??
i no longer understand my-so-called-happy life...IM PRETENDING.
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